Mat,
You’ve concluded your last posting with that nice little poem, quoted above by cate, which ends with the line “looking forward to the next "Merciful" verse/song ...”. So I thought I’d oblige with the next installment:
II. 44
The meditations of the great are above me, and the entwining of the letters is beyond my skill. I cannot climb down to the vehicles of holiness, and my dreams do not ascend. But you have taught the heart to search itself in simple ways, with broom and rag, and you do not abandon my heart to the dust. I come to you for mercy and you hear my cry, and you shelter me in my portion, and you make my deeds a warning. Blessed are you who hears the cry of each man’s portion. You cast me away to draw me back, you darken every expectation which is not you. You have taught me with a voice, you have rebuked me with a cheap reward. I cry from my defeat and you straighten my thought. It is your name that makes the cry a healing, it is your mercy that guards the heart in the panic of yes and no. Let the heart speak to its friend, you who decipher the world to a child. Let the heart speak of the love that humbles it for wilder love, and let my whispered gratitude uphold me through this day. In the hopelessness of every other thing, you make your place, you strengthen your presence, and I ask to bow down before the lord of my life.
The meditations of the great are above me – The following parts of this sentence refer mostly to Jewish traditions, but I guess LC includes among “the great” those mystics of
all traditions who thought to approach the divine through their meditations.
and the entwining of the letters is beyond my skill - This must refer to the Jewish traditions, including the Kabbalistic one, of finding hidden meaning in the letters of the Torah through numerical values and other methods (if you’re interested, look up “Gematria”).
I cannot climb down to the vehicles of holiness – This refers to one of the most ancient trends of Jewish mysticism, known as “
Heichalot and
Merkavah”, which speculates about the heavenly palaces, angles and so on. The “vehicles” in this sentence refers to the
Merkavah (or
Merkaba), which means “chariot”, and which had its start with the vision of Ezekiel in the Bible. Although the
Merkavah is a heavenly vehicle, for some obscure reason those who speculated about it called themselves “those who
climb down into the vehicle”. There is no good explanation for this paradox yet, but it is clear that LC is well familiar with the term.
and my dreams do not ascend - In Jewish mystical tradition, as well as in many other traditions, dreams are another means of gaining divine knowledge. In Kabbalah there is a ritual of asking a question and expecting the answer in a dream, and there are dream journals written by famous Kabbalists.
with broom and rag – The speaker here, admitting ignorance of the more sophisticated means of receiving divine knowledge, turns to simpler, mundane means, and to the heart. The “broom and rag” brings to mind also the practice of Zen monks, who between meditations clean the temple (sometimes doing it while running, to spend off extra energy gained during meditation).
and you shelter me in my portion – “Portion” is another important term in Jewish tradition. It often refers to the portion each person will have in the world to come, after the redemption. According to the Talmud, each person has this portion reserved for him, but he might lose it through religious transgressions. A biblical verse (Book of Lamentations, 3:24) declares: “The Lord is my portion, says my soul”; a famous poem – of which LC may have been aware – is based on this verse. It is by the great poet and philosopher Yehuda Halevi (born in Spain before 1075, died in Egypt or Palestine around 1140), translated by T. Carmi:
The slaves of Time are the slaves of a slave;
only the slave of the Lord is free.
Therefore, while other men seek their portion,
‘The Lord is my portion,’ says my soul.