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by daveeliver » Tue Dec 14, 2010 11:26 pm
a recent poem by Raymond Carver's wife Tess Gallagher
Montenegro by Tess Gallagher
After my poems, read in translation
By Varja against a backdrop of photos
projected of Ray and me when we were young,
the man in the black leather jacket
approaches to tell me hates the Irish,
especially the sound of their language.
I repeat that I am Irish, Cherokee and English,
something already mentioned in Varja’s
introduction. He doesn’t register.
He worked with an Irishman. He now knows
all Irish people. Nonetheless he pursues me
at the party. Having heard of my cancer
survival, he confesses a fear
of prostate cancer. He wants to know
my treatment, trying to gauge my
survival chances from drug properties-
how much was done to keep me here.
From his questions I realise he’s
a pharmaceutical salesman. He casts
a rant against everyone around us who
is smoking and that is everyone. ‘You
could have stopped Ray,’ he tosses, widening
his will to damage. Not having met Ray’s demons
he could imagine lifting
them. Nonetheless, I wish it had been true,
and that Ray was, in fact,
standing there instead of me.
But I cannot even calm this man,
soon two writers lift him under his arms
and carry him outside like a small disabled
scarecrow. The residue of accusation, of
hating the Irish, of disgust with smokers
hangs in the air-everyone still
talking about him, ‘He said he was
from Sarajevo,’ Varja says,’ but maybe just
to engage my emotions.’
Someone offers: ‘His accent was Northern or
maybe Bosnian,’ ‘Well it doesn’t matter,’ Varja
answers. ‘No it doesn’t matter.’ Someone else
quietly pulls the moment into
focus. It isn’t about where he came from or
ethnic identity. He is one man saying
what he says and getting himself kicked out
onto the terrace above the river while everyone
tries to get away from the sludge, the intricate
detritus of what they wanted to feel
about a man nobody knows who came into
their midst with unhappy things
on his mind, and unhappy ways of trying to make
the world carry it, and him. Yes,
we still have to carry him. And even now,
remembering Ray, I make room for the scald
of him. his headless taunt, the outcast moment
when his hatred-sword was raised over me
and I wished for him, somewhere out there
in the night, the largesse of that one whose gift
had brought us all together.
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daveeliver on Wed Dec 15, 2010 7:19 am, edited 1 time in total.
Look after yourself and (each)others. All the best Dave ♫♫♫